Expectations

   After having a conversation about my littles with a wonderful woman we met on vacation I have come to realize that others have high expectations on Jacob.  She inquired about my two oldest ages and was in complete shock to find out not only were they 4 years apart in age that they in fact were not twins. I was in shock about that and then I just watched them for a minute in the distance. I guess Jacob is as big and even bigger than his sister. Just yesterday he put on a shirt and boy was it tight! It seems he has hit another growth spurt. He wears boys 18 and he is 10. Just saying that is surreal. He actually has two medical issues. Autism spectrum being one but Beckwith Weidemann Syndrome being the other. With this one being larger for your age is normal. Unfortunately for him his maturity level is that of a 6 year old in a 10 year olds body and who wears the size of an 18 year old. 

   It has been years of struggle out in public with behaviors so much that the days I say "lets go do this" and come home with regrets I even tried. There are high expectations of just behaving from me, but now that thought that others are going to have even higher expectations with just the fact he looks so much older. Yes, he is highly intelligent but boy can things change with the flip of a switch.  I am hoping that things get better for him this year. I am worried with 6th grade comes many new responsibilities on doing things on his own. Which I have been trying to prep him on all last year.  I guess what I am saying is I am not upset about others perceptions as I am with him struggling to fit into this world. I am going to try to be positive for this coming school year and hope he stops growing because I seriously now need to check the sales and get him new clothes now......